You ever look at yourself and wonder why you react the way you do sometimes? For example, last week I sorta of blow up at Carol, mostly about Judah (I've started calling her the she-devil dog when she gets on my nerves). But I guess I really didn't blow up I just tried to discuss. Afterwards, I spent all weekend feeling guilty. Why? Because I actually voiced my opinion and thoughts... you know the ones that weren't pleasant. It seems in the past I try to hold it in, who knows why. Maybe I'm afraid it will change how others think about me. Maybe it just comes down to my uncomfortableness with conflict. Maybe I just don't what to complain. On the flip side it isn't healthy to keep it all in. It isn't healthy to not feel comfortable discussing things that matter to me and those things that get on my nerves. I see the beginnings of healing... yet totally hate the process!!! Anybody out there understand??
By the way, to all those interested.... Judah decided to make herself her own doggie door!!
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well, if it helps any - i would prefer that you yell at me than vent to someone else (aka mom) and then i get a lecture next time i talk to her. i think that is true for most people - they would rather you talk to them about the issue instead of someone else. and you dont have to be mad and yelling - you can just say "this really irritates me because..." - and your message gets across without holding it in for months.
oh and for all of the other readers who hate my dog - cheryl got mad because judah got sick on her couch...and judah gets sick because cheryl feeds her human food.
O.K. Cheryl all I have to say is, it's about time!!! Letting your emotions show is not bad, trust me I do it all the time! There are way too many other things to feel guilty about, like eating one too many chocolate bars, buying an outfit that is way too expensive, I mean come on girl let it all out!!! By the way, what is the deal with the dog making her own doggy door?!?!
carol-- take her to obedience school
i totaly understand how you feel. you don't want to make any one mad, so you build it all up inside of you. totally not healthy, i agree...but there's those boundaries and we all need them and everyone should respect them. it's hard i know....believe me there are times when i want to blow up at my family or even voice some opinions to my closest friends...it's that not wanting to hurt that person...saying to yourself.."what would Jesus do" if in the same situation. how can 1 be nice at blowing up ???
are you going to write in here again???? i check and nothing.
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